Wow it has been awhile

Yes im back finally Mr K Rudd has supplied me with the oppertunity to get a laptop and that i have so here Iam... One or two things have happened since i was last on, My Grandma has passed away recently 1st march 2009 at the ripe age of 83...She is a much much loved and much misssed lady and i love her so much..Her funeral was lovely as she is scottish we had scottish music and i actually got to see her as it was open casket for abit and it was so freaky and so sad because she looked so different..She looked so white and so did her hair, her face looked so gaunt and sunken :( i cryed my heart out that day plus my stoopid dad had introduced me to Esther (dads new daughter) and because me and spike have been trying for over 12 months i burst out into tears..

We also havent gotten married and i dont think we will for awhile *sigh* getting married is so expensive even if you just go to the registry office :( so yeah..

So me and spike have been TTC #2 for awhile now and im getting really frustrated as we are so young. We have been having unprotected sex for over 13 months now but have been "offically" TTC for 9 months. We have been to a fertility specialist at Repromed in Adelaide where spike got his sperm looked at and intially we thought it was a very bad result but it was actually a very good result he has a good sperm count,viscosity and all that jazz but his morphology wasnt so great but that doesnt mean he cant have children and that we cant fall pregnant naturally. So thats one upside but now im thinking it has something to do with me :( admittedly im overweight but i have seen so many women who are much bigger then me with newborns so weight cant be a huge issue with getting pregnant. So im doing a day 2-6 bloods and ultrasound test when my period comes which isnt all that far away maybe just maybe i might be pregnant and not have to worry and stress anymore lol fingers crossed hey! Will keep you posted.


So i will leave it at there for now...Hope to blog more often!